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Sunday, 13 July 2008
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Breakfast at Tiffany's (Special Aniversary Collector's Edition)
By Stanley Adams, Elvia Allman, Martin Balsam, Dick Crockett, Buddy Ebsen
see relatedchanges.
The only constant in life is change. That may seem contradictory, but it is true. Sit back and think... 10 years ago (1998)... where were you? what were you doing? who where your friends? now fast forward 5 years (2003)... ahead 4 years (2007)... how about January 1, 2008. Are you the same person? Do you have the same friends? Are you living in the same place?
I know I am not. I am not even the same person I was last week. I am constantly growing and learning who I am. Now don't get me wrong, I am not a fly-by-night person. Ok let me explain. 10 years ago... I was getting ready to enter high school, living in a pretty sheltered environment most of my friends were from church or classmates, and girls... 5 years ago... I was a getting ready to go back to LCC for my 2nd year. I no longer talk ed to 95% of my HS graduating class. I also was moving floors in the dorm and majors (no longer youth ministry, but missions). I was coming out of a major spiritual depression and things were finally looking good. I was also loosing the battle with my parents to spend the next summer in Kenya. My friends were all juniors and seniors and mostly guys... Last year... I was out of college and substitute teaching now. I was in what I thought was a great realationship (after 5 months he broke it off). I was signed on with a missions organization (since I returned from Kenya in 2004) and raising support to go back long term. I only talked to my roommate from my senoir year and a few other friends from college. And now... I have moved to a new city (not small town) a few hours away, because I got a job at a pre-school. I am living with my roommate from college (the only one of 5 that I am still in contact with). My best guy friend from college and I have been through MANY ups and down since September of last year getting super close around January/February and now we almost never talk. I am no longer affiliated with the oragnization I once was, and i am currently talking with a new one. WOW LOTS HAVE CHANGED!
In a few weeks, I am going to be spending a week in the Dominican Republic with the youth group I helped with before I moved. I am so excited, for many of them it is the first time they will be out of the country... including my little sister!!!
well thats it for now.....
talk to you later.
Thursday, 06 April 2006
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Room for Squares
By John Mayer
3x5
see relatedhey guys so i dont really know how many people actually read this but you know does it really matter??? so i have had a few profound thoughts over the past few days...well maybe not too profound but they were big for my little head to get around. for example, FRIENDS do they choose you or do you choose them and how long do they stay..... i have had many friends in the last 22 years of my life, but a select few have made me the person i am today... in high school i didn't really have a ton of friends that i would have called close...in fact my best friend was my cousin how sad is that...it was because i was "friends" with 90% of everyone in my class...it happens when you have been together with each other since like pre-school and there are only like 46 kids in your graduating class. so yea i had all these surface level friends and at the time i thought that was great....i didnt know there was supposed to be something more.... oh and becky, she went to church with me...but we were not the good little angels that everyone thought we were....wow the memories.
anyways then i came to college and i was thrown into a completely new situation... making new friends.....doesnt sound hard... right... well it was... dont get me wrong i made friends but they were not close....you see i am fairly shy (i know i know shocking right) and i have trust issues, which i am working on.....my sophomore year i was pretty good friends with shelly (for those of you who know her)......ian and isaiah were very high on the list (they were my closest friends for a while)...i was not even close to any of my roommates until this year, with elyse, and that is actually a funny story...i hated eylse for 2 1/2 years...i thought she was a huge snob...and now we pretty much love each other....
this year i seem to be making friends left and right...figures since i am leaving in a month and a half....but some friends that i have made this semester seem to have only been placed in my life of a short season...i suppose there is a reason....i have tried to salvage the relationship but things just dont seem to be working out....i hope things turn around and things work out, i would have to lose these people altogether.... anyways im done for the night...
Saturday, 04 March 2006
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so yea it has been FOREVER since i have been on here.....guess i am a horrible blogger....... oh well..and yes tara oh is a word, i looked it up... so what has happened in the last like 2 months....not much but a ton at the same time....confused yet.....welcome to my world.
ok so here it goes...
January - i went to chicago with roommate, dwayne, and pappy to visit liz (roommate's sister). we had a blast and we hope to do it again soon. i made friends with the girl that i thought hated me...and not only are we friends we are uber good friends (that is somewhere between good friends and almost best friends.....ok so i am full of crap but what else is new right). classes started and i think that this semester is going to be a good one i mean it is so far and it is march already.
February - ummmm....february, february...what happened in february.....lots of time with friends. on valentines day i was proposed to 3 times (not all of them were wanted but what can i say)...ok so it was a Holer holiday. every tuesday and thirsday i have been going to watch the boys play indoor this is too much fun.
and now Match - well as i write this i am at CGO north in Ft. Myers FLA on spring break/week of e. it is good to be back. there have been spo many changes that it almost isnt the same place i left in july. there are so many new families and housing is way different (not that i am complaining because the new girls house is wonderful!!!!) so far while down here i have had middle-eastern night at the Krepps' house...COAT pizza night/danielle's birthday party at the Osbornes' house.... tonight i am hanging out with tara and leland...i havent seen leland since NMC and i am too excited i missed him so much. and then tomorrow is dinner at the Hudson's (well gwen is preparing the food but we are eating at the Crumbs' be cause they are out of town/country/continent)....mmmmmmmmmmmm sunday night at the Hudsons'
LIFE LESSONS LEARNED
over the past few months i have allowed people to get to know the real ashley. this is hard for me as most of you know...notthat i am trying to hide who i am but jsut the fact hat i have built major walls in the trust department over the years...these walls are slowly coming down, very slowly....ok so i have been letting people in and it has been great i have friends whom i can tell anything....this year so far has been a great lesson in trust....not that everything has gone smoothly, there have been times that i should have had walls up but those times have even worked out for the best because we have worked through them...................so the moral of the story is be yourself, be open, be honest, and have fun......
Sunday, 14 August 2005
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Currently Watching
Fargo (Special Edition)
By William H. Macy, Steve Buscemi
see relatedWHY DOES EVERYTHING HAVE TO BE SO HARD!!!!!!!! life, school, packing, family, friends, relationships...especially relationships. so how do you tell the important people in your mission agency that you REALLY REALLLY like a guy you met on your internship...a national. you know there won't be a problem because itere are many international couples but theere are also a few difficult cases too. grrrr............... and now there is the added stress of the conference in october IN KENYA WITH EVERYBODY............. i want to say we are dating but i hate online relationships, you cant really get to know someone that way.... for me you have to be there with that person to see them at the good and the bad. IT IS JUST SO HARD!!!!!!
Saturday, 13 August 2005
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Currently Listening
Come Away with Me
By Norah Jones
see relatedtoday it finally hit me how much i miss florida. i was starting to pack for school and i ran across my unpacked suitcases...the entire summer flashed before my eyes...corey, stacy, the office, liz & habacuc & jael, ft. myers beach just before "dennis" stopped by, leland, christi, corey, sports page, fishing, corey, sunday night at the hudsons', corey... (plans might be in the process for spring break in the fort hope the offer still stands
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so i finished my summer course today....YIPPY!!!!!!!! i am a free woman for a week. i move back to the ginormous metropolis of lincoln on friday... i cant wait to see everyone again. well i need to get to bed night. ill write tomarrow...hopefully!!
namunyak
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- Name: ashley
- Birthday: 3/10/1984
- Gender: Female
- Member Since: 4/7/2005
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beauty in simplicity. i don't think that life has to be complicate to be fulfilling. just fill your life with the things you love. i love so many things that i try and surround myself with... friends, family, music, art, cultures, languages, Jesus. i have a passion for the people of africa, more specifically kenya. i graduated from college with a BA in intercultural studies and a cert. in TESOL in 2006 and for the next eighteen months i worked as substitute teacher in the town where i grew-up. then in march 2008 i moved and started working as a teacher aide in a pre-school and discovered another passion of mine...... kids. i am hoping to find a way to combine both of my passions and work with kids in kenya. when i left kenya i felt like i left a piece of me.
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